I always say that I am at my happiest when I am acting crazy.
In the last post: “The moment you start to turn you start to see the other side”, I wrote about an impulsive decision that I made to walk the Camino de Santiago, a little hike of more or less 321 km´s. It is not the first time that I made such a decision, for example when I decided to do the “100km Dodentocht” two weeks in advance without training, just to accompany the boyfriend of my cousin. His friends got cold feet, he asked me and I said yes. As simple as that and in the end it turned out to be an experience that I will never forget. So crazy decisions, I will make a lot more of them and there is no better time than now. I bought a ticket to visit a friend in Rome and will return just in time to be with family and friends who are coming to visit me in Madrid. Afterwards I had one week planned to move my stuff out of my apartment in order to have it empty before walking the path that king Alfonso II did in the IX century. But now it turns out that the new planning says that I have only three days to move out. Nothing bad happened, on the contrary, a good colleague of mine who loves climbing just asked me if I wanted to join him to reach the – summit of Aneto, the highest peak of the pyrenees –.
Living it like a Yes-man there was only one answer: ¡Sí! 🙂
All this fun comes with a little bit of a hustle, because when I got the ticket to Italy I thought at the same to get one for Asia, but then I noticed that my passport was about to expire. Hmmm? That would be a problem abroad, would it not? So some trips to the city hall, the embassy, etc… are required, but I just added this to my To Do-list and got on with it. Just loving my plans too much and really want to execute them, no time for slacking. Time is precious. So if going to a few different places and stand in line for 30 minutes in order to fill out some forms for 30 seconds is needed to be able to explore some new parts of the world is necessary. Then it is necessary and better to get them done wright away and leave the complaining for the unhappy people. Not all the preparations are a drag though, after purchasing a flight I always get a instantaneous smile on my face, when I bought my new backpack I could already dream away how I would use it as my new home for the travels to come, the nice new boots that would allow me to make amazing hikes, just enjoying in advance. Ufffff I love to dream, to feed my imagination and have happy thoughts.
We are shaped by our thoughts, we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.
Remember when I said in the beginning on how I started the journey without knowing where it would lead me. That is a scary thought, would you not agree? Still I do not have a clue at all of where I am going, but life is gently taking form. Since I have a “mission” I am guided with my ideas and they do not mess around. Knowing what are my priorities in life is helping me making decisions. Before I knew it several weeks, months probably, are getting planned with activities that excite me. Not only just nice vacations, even though they have their purpose, but also many projects to consider for the future. I feel more creative, it is like I have unlocked a new door that hid an enormous amount of energy that only wants to thrive. The fear of the principal “scary” is disappearing, not that I personally gave it much attention. Mostly because I simply refuse to live with fear and always lived by that rule, now it turns out that you can relate this philosophy to Buddhism. Powerful wright? I was not aware of that.The change of attitude is fully responsible for that, made me eager for knowledge. The more I learn, the more I know what I do not know. This is a lifestyle for life.
I DRIVE IN THE DARK
ONE WRONG TURN AND I WILL CRASH
NO DOUBT KEEP FULL THROTTLE
– a Haiku by Bram –
Crazy to the full extent, paired with a feeling of satisfaction, strengthen by a purpose. I am happy when I am acting crazy.